I am sleep deprived.

Besides that, I have been through quite a lot of upseting moments.

Also, this Friday, I will have to spend the night at the hospital with my Father and no internet.

This place where I happen to live in (Rio de Janeiro) is terribly hot. Have been locked inside my bedroom with airconditioner on.

Hopefuly things will get better soon.

Its so nice to write in this beautiful Blog which is so important to me!

First, let me start by showing you a picture of the wonderful days Cam and I spent together here in Rio:

This is us and the aunties going for a ride at Santa Tereza´s tram. My husband wanted so much to go there but I was a bit afraid…. So the aunties took us which was great

Anyway, I am missing, I mean, MISSING, my husband SO MUCH!

Last Sunday he was here, in this very little room with me and we were happy together. Even with the terrible heat. Every time we are together is just amazing and so intense. We have this kind of connection that probably very few lwould have. We are 4 years married now! I am so proud! So HAPPY!!!

Yesterday I felt like going for a walk to the aunties place, which felt good. And had the usual lunch pastries with them.

Evening was good as well. Having my veloved husband online with me and doing 9 miles workout.

Today I spent the day home. Did some organization in my little tiny bedroom, did 9 miles workout, had LOADS of fruits for lunch..

Watched DVDs, went through our lovely pictures albums and now I am trying to connect the very nice hard drive Cam gave me for my Birthday. I will have to ask him how to do it because so far I have no idea… I want to make sure all our pictures are saved inside the hard drive.

Turned out I didnt do any Bikram Yoga by myself. And I dont quite think I will have Bikram classes anyway. Its just that the teacher probably doesnt have any support from the academy where she teaches and also people here never heard about it anyway. The fact that the academy is not very close to where I live is a low point. I dont have much time in my days as I must spent eat least 7 hours at work, which is downtown.

Friday I tried one of my Kundalini Yoga DVDs and it was OK! So I will probably keep on doing that after Leslie Sansone´s Walk Away the Pounds.

Oh! Next Thuesday is my Birthday 43 years old, thats it! I am not upset at all for being “old” or whatever… I feel good for being healthy and for feeling much younger than that. I am blessed and thankful for one more good year of living.

Waiting for my husband to get online…….. Missing him……. Needing hus help to access my new hard drive………

Going to re-read my Chinese Medicine book called ” Live Clean Be Strong and Stay Sexy”.

PS: Congratulations Ben & Karen for new baby girl!!! Hope we will meet her soon

I will be doing that by myself, in my little room. I will write a daily Journal about it.

Here, in Rio, its SO HOT that naturally we have the ideal Bikram class temperature.

Wish me luck

I just feel like staying inside with the airconditioner.

I cant sleep at this apartment Cam and I are staying. Too hot!

I cant walk around these streets. Cant stand the heat. Feeling awful.

Feel exausted. Couldnt sleep until 6 AM.

Hate this heat. Hate it. Feel like shit. Feel terrible. Need aircon.

I feel so frustrated that there is NO Bikram Yoga in this shit country – Brasil!

Jesus! This is proved to be the MOST AMAZING TYPE OF YOGA available now a days and for some reason absolutely nobody has any interest in opening a Bikram Yoga Studio whatsoever in this country!!!! I can´t believe it!

Millions of people all over the planet are practising Bikram and loving it. Getting in their best shape inside and outside. Tons of people are making big money opening Bikram studios and here, in Brasil, in Rio de Janeiro, people never heard about it! Feels like living in the Jurassic Era…

If I had the money, I would open a Bikram Yoga studio here in Rio (one branch in Leblon, another in Gavea and one more in Ipanema). I´d become a millionaire!

After doing loads of research online, I found one Bikram instructor here in Rio. But she only teaches Core Yoga because she has no available place for Bikram. I called the lady and bagged her to give me a buzz as soon as she can teach Bikram here.

In the meantime, I will have to do the only thing possible: practice Bikram Yoga by myself!

I ordered Bikram´s books at Amazon.com as well as The Barkan Method DVD. I also downloaded the Asanas poses online and bought a little heater.

What I will do is start a jornal about my progress. If you´ve ever came to Rio, you know this city is terribly hot and humid so I will probably use my little heater only from June to September.

I am used to workout at home as I do Leslie Sansone´s “Walk Away the Pounds” for quite a while and LOVE IT!

So… Every evening, when I arrive home from work, I will first do my Leslie Sansone (my cardio), warm my muscles and sweat a lot. Than I will do my Bikram.

I will let you know how it goes.

ANYBODY OUT THERE!!! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE OPEN A BIKRAM YOGA STUDIO IN RIO DE JANEIRO!!!!!!!! YOU WILL GET RICH!!!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I´m sorry we havent been writing for a little while….

Cam has been here with me and right now we are at my father´s place and Cam is lying on the couch, watching some TV.

It SO HOT here! About 34 C during the day and 29 C in the evenings. We are a but sunburned because we waked along the beach last Friday.

Cam arrived here on Dec 19th and time runs SO FAST! He was supposed to arrive here on the day before but as usual Aerolineas Argentinas has rblems with conections so he had to spend the night in Buenos Aires.

We are having a god time together just enjoying each other, doing nothing special.

Christmas was good. We spent Christmas Eve at my cousin Maria do Carmo´s place and that was fun. The food is always good. On Christmas day we had lunch at my aunt Yolanda´s place, which was good too. The food wasnt as good as my cousin´s .

We watched Avatar 3D version at Downtown Mall and the movie was great! We also watched New York I Love You – very good!

We had a little walk downtown and it was terrible! Too hot! Too many people! No shadows!

Walking around Ipanema and Leblon is always good, in my opinion. There is also Leblon Mall and Gavea Mall, where we can go and scape frm the strong un a bit.

In the Evenings we have been going to my twin auntie´s place to eat pastries. Its good but we sort of have a bit of enough of that. The pastries are good and they make sure to buy a good variety.

Today we went to Hortifruti and besides other stuff, we bought 2 pizzas which we will have for dinner so dont have to sit at the aunties for pastries tonight

Changing subjects, I found a Bikram Yoga teacher! Yay!! Must contact her. Will call her tomorrow. Hopefully her schedule will match my daily routine. I honestly think it would be awesome to practice Bikram Yoga!

Tomorrow I will be bringing Cam back to Leblon so that he can get a haircut.

Thats it for now!

December has come and its time for my husband and I have a little time off work and be together in our little holidays. Boy, I MISS him so much!

Being with him is my Xmas present.

I used to like Xmas a lot but after my mother died I stopped enjoying it. I dont like being forced to celebrate if I dont want to. This is how those family reunions are for me. I feel forced to celebrate.

Xmas to me is being with my husband, my father, my brother, my aunties or Cam´s parents if I´m in New Zealand.

Of course, its also time to count my wonderful blessings and being thankful from the deep of my heart.

But, anyway, speaking about being forced to celebrate. When I was in school I didnt like it for many years in my life because I was so shy and bad self steem. Also also the boys would make fun of me because of my big glasses and my braces. And most of the girls were quite posh and I didnt have all the things they had like a driver of a two floor huge apartment. I didnt fit in. Well, many years later the school mates decide to meet up and Flavia, one of the girls, finds out my phone number and calls me. They would meet in a reataurant for the old times sake. If I hated them than why on the earth would I like them now???? They have been meeting for the last 5 years by Xmas time and still send me invitation emails  (I´m in their mailing list). I always think: “What the F?? I am SO not going!” And I never did.

Something very ridiculous has been happening at my work.

I believe I´ve mentioned this before. There´s woman who works with me, her name is Claudia, and she is such a dangerous bitch! She and Silvia – this one has been fired recently – have been managing to harm Tessa (another girl from work) just because they think they can. Hard to explain in English. Tessa and Silvia were best friends. Silvia was always complaining that she had no money, she´s a single mother of 3 kids and struggle to pay her mortgage. So Tessa lent het R$ 3.000,00. Two weeks later, Silvia, who had the huge money problem, decides to get a full body sculpt (like body makeover surgery) which would cost her about R$ 10.000,00. Of course Tessa got pissed off and got Silvia to give her money back. Silvia ended paying her back (after a while) but decided to hunt Tessa down. Since that moment, Silvia and Claudia have been done all kinds of manipulation to get Tessa to be fired. Its imoral what those two are doing. The situation is quite bad after an article was published at the Union papertelling lies about Tessa. We will see what happens… Well only one week to go before holidays so we will see what happens.

I just finished watching Marley & Me. Really cute movie. Made me want to cry a bit.

Tomorrow is my Sunday – and our 3 years and 11 month Anniversary!!!

Well, I am SOOOO sleepy. I need to tuck myself into bed now.

“But all the promises we make. From the cradle to the grave. When all I want is YOU.”

I love you, my blue blue eyed darling husband. You are the love of my life.